What I Got Wrong When I Self-Published

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I went to college in New York City with the dream of one day being a published poet who wrote in cafes while drinking cappuccinos and smoking cigarettes. I know, I know, it was the late 80s, early 90s, and all the cool kids were doing it.

Fast forward to today, I drink lattes, don’t smoke anything, and haven’t written poetry in years. Life doesn’t always work out as you planned.

But . . . I did write a book.

Let’s go back a bit.

I started my publishing career in my 20s. I’ve written, edited, project managed, and marketed books. They’ve all been pretty niche non-fiction, and you probably haven’t read any of them. Although I’m proud to say our Pokémon Value Guide, which I researched, co-wrote, and edited, made the NYT Best Sellers list. Should I have lead with that?

Anyway, after a couple of layoffs and a teaching sprint, I went to back to school and graduated with an MFA in Creative Non-Fiction.

My thesis consisted of personal essays and poetry. The poetry had been written years before, I still hadn’t been writing in that genre, but I needed to flesh out the page count. The essays were either revamped from old works or brand new, all shaped by my advisor and classmates’ feedback.

After graduating, I made some changes (names were changed to protect privacy and some parts were removed entirely) and through Kindle Direct Publishing, I self-published Inked Up: Tales of a Girl Who Learned Stuff Along the Way.

Why did I self-publish?

I had a few reasons to take this route, the first being that the essays in the book were extremely personal and I didn’t want anyone to change them. I hired an editor who helped with grammatical issues, but the content remained the same. And with all my talented publishing friends, including my editor, I had everything I needed.

The second is a bit of a lazy excuse. I had just done so much work to complete grad school while working full-time; I just wanted it out there to share with family and friends. I lacked the energy to look for an agent and/or publisher.

(Note: Most traditional publishes require an agented submission. Be sure to check the guidelines before sending in unsolicited work.)

What went wrong?

An acquaintance had just self-published his book and had 500 copies in just a couple months. That seemed easy enough.

But we didn’t start in the same place. Sure, I have a lot of friends who have enjoyed my writing, but he owned a record company and was in a popular goth band. He had a ton of connections, friends, and fans. It didn’t take much more than a few mentions on social media and all of his platforms for his book to sell. Our genres, and therefore audience, were different as well; he wrote queer fiction and I wrote personal essays, so the scope of our audiences were quite different.

Am I telling you not to self-publish?

Absolutely not. Am I telling you that if you self-publish you won’t sell a lot of books? Also, absolutely not.

All I’m saying is that if you do go this route, do your research and manage your expectations.

You can find reliable self-publishing and hybrid resources with a quick Google search.

Looking back . . .

If I had to do it again with this particular book, I’d probably do the same thing. Sure, I would have liked to sell more, but that was never really my reason to publish it in the first place. I wanted to share my stories with the people I loved. To say it “went wrong” isn’t accurate.

But to think an audience of people who didn’t know me personally would buy the book,

Did I secretly hope I would sell millions of books to people who didn’t know me and wanted to hear my personal stories that very likely didn’t relate at all to them? Of course I did.

That future dream girl writing to-be-published works in a NYC cafe still lives in my soul.

Shameless self-promotion

That said, when I write my next one, which I will do some day, I’d go the traditional route. I’ll put the manuscript and its future in the publishing house’s hands and watch them work the magic.

Don’t get me wrong. Niche is great. Write for you and not your audience and all that. But once again I say, manage your expectations.

Then when you do better than expected, it’ll be amazing.

How about you?

I would love to know about your publishing experience. What route do you recommend? If you self-published, what tips do you have for selling more than a handful? Please help a fellow writer out!

Got writer’s block? Check these out.

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I can’t write.

I mean, I can write. I have two degrees in creative writing and have written professionally for decades.

But when it comes to writing on my own, I have a horrible time with writer’s block. This is a relatively new thing in the past few years, and I think life and all its responsibilities take a toll on creativity.

But when I decide I’m tired of my own excuses (maybe they aren’t all excuses, but more of my feeling bad about writing), I look for resources that can help. Let me tell you about some of them.

There’s a class for that

I love school. I love classes and ever since graduation, I’ve taken a variety of them. Having deadlines and accountability helps me tremendously. So, if they help you and you have a little extra time and money, here are a few I suggest.

Writing Workshops: Most of the classes are online but they also offer international writing retreats and even an IndieMFA program — all from professional writers.

Gotham Writers Workshop: Gotham offers in-person, Zoom, and independent programs taught by accomplished faculty.

On the page

Writing books are great if you want flexibility and have more self-discipline than I do. They come in different formats from inspirational to workbook. Some of my favorites include:

Bird by Bird by Ann Lamott

On Writing by Stephen King

Writing Down the Bones by Natalie Goldberg

The Artist’s Way by Julia Cameron

Save the Cat! Writes a Novel by Jessica Brody

Right now I’m super excited about these: Write a Romantasy and Write a Dystopian Novel, both from Erik Patterson, who you may know as YourDailyWritingPrompt on TikTok. Coming soon, and the one I’m most excited about, is Write a Horror Novel.

Erik brings his quick wit and professional insights to these pages full of tips, encouragement and prompts. He’s fantastic.

In the cards

Are you creative but also into Tarot and magick? Check these out:

Tarot for Creativity by Chelsey Pippin Mizzi

Lessons from the Empress by Cassandra Snow and Siri Vincent Plouff

Magic Maker by Pam Grossman

The Writer’s Oracle by Alexadra Rowland (not magic, but still excellent)

Tell me more

What are your go-to resources when you need some writing inspiration? Let me know in the comments! I’m always looking for suggestions, please help a fellow writer out!