Hi, friends. Remember in an previous post when I mentioned that we were heading into Mercury Retrograde? No shit, right? Let me tell you that yesterday was a day! I won’t go into details, but it was seriously out of whack. So this morning to prepare myself, I pulled the cards and asked: What should I be aware of today? And what should I do to handle it? For the spread I used Fifth Spirit Tarot.

I’m not going to share what I saw for myself because believe it or not, it’s not really something I want out there. But I can tell you that those freakin’ cards were right on as usual. Feel free to share your interpretation!

LET’S try to be social

About an hour ago, my husband asked me if anyone uses SnapChat anymore. I don’t know, do they? I tried it for a week or so when it first launched, and I did it entirely for the filters, which I got bored of rather quickly. They were pretty cool, but my attention span is pretty short. And why would I want something I post to disappear in a few hours? Okay, I can think of a few reasons, but overall, not so much.

But then again, I still mostly use Facebook, which is a good indication of my age group. I occasionally post on Instagram, the frequency being another indication of my age group.

And that got me thinking about social media platforms.

I miss LiveJournal. I just looked it up to see if it still exists, and it does! Who knew! It was because of this platform and MySpace (yeah, I said it), that I got to know so many people in New Haven and on the goth scene. Of course, there was also a club called Flux and some very strong drinks poured by a wonderful bartender named Michael.

Remember the MySpace top 10? How many arguments did that cause? I can think of one very large one in my house.

For work, among other things, I’m a social media manager so I have taken certification classes and seminars and know quite a bit about it. Except TikTok. I mean, I can use it and I can run ads on it pretty successfully, but I cannot for the life of me figure out its algorithm. I only have a work account and I’m pretty much the only person who uses it so I have to wonder why (Why?!) some of the videos show up in my “For you” feed. Like this. And also like this. As I was scrolling to find examples, I came across one of those videos that you have to check the comments to understand what’s going on. All I’ll say is that it featured a fisherman taking caviar out of a very dead, yet not entirely still, fish. Now I have to go watch a ton of cat videos to get that out of my head. I’m not going to share it here, you’re welcome.

That’s the “For You” on my work account. We’re an esoteric book publisher.

I also use Twitter, I mean X, for work, but it’s kind of a cesspit. Even though I clearly love outbound links for SEO purposes, I’m not going to link this platform. I mean, why bother? The work accounts I follow are great, but some of the others, not so much. I am trying to remember when it launched–was it so confusing to use? I feel like the notification feature is a complete mess and sometimes I can’t even find the original post that the commentors are commenting on. Is it me?

I heard they had to take down the huge flashing X they put atop HQ because it gave people seizures. Need I say more?

*Note I did fact check that last statement and really it was a permit issue and not a seizure issue, and I guess that pretty much sums up the whole X debacle as well.

Maybe someday I’ll try Threads. You?

once upon a time there was no internet

And we walked to school in the snow uphill both ways without shoes.

The previous sentence isn’t true, although I did grow up in upstate New York where no one, at least at that time, had ever heard of a snow day.

Anyhow, I was reminded of the power of the internet and social media today during a discussion (on social media) about Rudy Guiliani of all people. I had shared a photo of a signed copy of the book he wrote. It literally says, “To Gia,” but I didn’t get it myself. That said, I thought it was an awesome gift. You can look up the book if you want, but there’s no need to give it any additional attention here.

Now, I know the Rudy of the last few years, but I also remember how he became a figurehead after 9/11, and I thought he did a really great job. I couldn’t understand what happened. And then, in the comments under the photo, I leaned a whole lot more about past Rudy that makes today’s Rudy a natural progression.

This isn’t about Rudy though, it’s about me not realizing these things were going on behind the scenes. I can definitely chalk some of it up to being self-absorbed in my teens and twenties (in the depressed, not vain way, although there was probably some of the latter too) and also privilege. But even back then I was pretty socially conscious. But I really think most of it was not having access to social media and all the sources now available online. Of course, American Online launched about that time and it offered all sorts of chat rooms, but did anyone use it for anything else? If you even had internet. For real, think about it–how limited was the information we had daily access to back then, for better or for worse. These weren’t the kinds of things you could look up in that set of encyclopedias your parents bought one by one from the supermarket.

I think I should step away from the keyboard now. Thank you for sticking with me to this point. May the happenings of Mercury Retrograde be in your favor.

I feel compelled to tell you

I did indeed spend way too much time obsessing about a hotel for Saturday after cancelling my room and actually found and booked one for $262 total. In Hell’s Kitchen no less–which is very different than the Hell’s Kitchen when I lived in the city, as is most of NYC.

Oh hi, Mercury Retrograde

I figured that if I were going to get back to blogging, a Tarot spread for the start of Mercury Retrograde would be a good place to begin. Of course, that means I should have a greater understanding of what Mercury Retrograde is, especially because I now work for an occult book publisher (yay back in publishing and in a genre so perfect for me!). But if I’m being honest here–and I am mostly always honest in my blogging for better or for worse–I don’t get astrology at all. It’s entirely too complicated for me. I do know, however, that Mercury Retrograde can be bad.

(Note: If you’d like to learn more about this retrograde astrological event, check out this article on Today.com by our friend Lisa Stardust.)

So as I try to revisit my Tarot practice, which I’ve been slacking on for about 30 years (see, honesty), I’m taking you with me. Are you excited? Here we go.

*Note, if you happen to follow me on Instagram and you look at my grid, you’ll see that the photo directly below the post featuring the above photos is also of The Tower. Because of course it is.

Card 1: What could you rethink?

The Tower: How I think: Everything is terrible! It’s absolute chaos! It is the worst possible scenario of all the things that can ever happen! Anxiety is my brand.

Card 2: What could you redo?

5 of Swords: How I respond to certain situations that will not be mentioned here: Self-pity, worried about what others think, jumping to conclusions, taking my ball and going home because my feelings are hurt over something that really (or usually) is only in my head

Card 3: What could you reconnect with?

5 of Pentacles: The part of myself that refuses to be a drama queen or martyr, my confidence, self-esteem, my energy (I mean this quite literally, I’m always exhausted.)

Card 4: What could be reevaluated?

8 of Cups: The way I spend my free time and also the way I get mad at myself when I just want to watch tv or play games

First I ask again, why do the cards always give me the same type of message? I see you, universe, I do, but surely you have other things to tell me. (We’ll discuss synchronicities at a later time–insert shameless plug for book, which features an entire chapter on that very topic.)

Now my takeaway: I need to stop panicking over pretty much everything and stop feeling sorry for myself for not doing the things I want to do. Don’t get me wrong, self, lying around playing Bingo and Toon Blast is a great way to relax, but maybe do a little more of some other things. Write, skate, knit, do more deadlifts (although not until your neck injury is fully healed) . . . maybe even finish painting your bathroom (did you hear that, Mom?). Something.

That seems to be an appropriate message going into Retrograde. And to be fair to myself, I have kind of already started. Look, I’m blogging!

Oh and don’t you worry. There will be plenty of blogs moving forward filled with panic and self-pity and just general angst. I mean, have you met me? Have you read the book? (Doh!)

Did I just age myself with a Homer Simpson reference even though it’s a really good reference? Am I going to age myself over and over again? Wait until I start talking about my arthritis and my CPAP machine.

But hey, feel free to tell me all about what ails you as well. I am at that age where aches and pains are the subject of many of my conversations–with other people as well as myself. And angst for all! (Not that I wish it on you, but if you don’t have any, tell me how you do it!)

Did I mention I have a computer pen now so I can actually draw for you too?! How lucky are you! Maybe one day I’ll show you my drawing of an alien abduction, which I drew during a really boring meeting years ago, that my very best friend framed and hung on her wall. It’s still there decades later. I love her. But not just for that.

Welcome aboard, friends, don’t say I didn’t warn you.

Oh and by the way, I am a Leo.