fuck it.

i gained 3.4 lbs when i weighed into weight watchers today. i haven’t eaten great this week, but i have worked out a lot. i was pretty bummed, although admittedly it’s more because i want to reach goal and stop paying for meetings that do work for me mostly. but you know what? fuck it. it’s just a setback.

this morning i received heartbreaking news that an old friend had passed yesterday. she was in her late 30s and a beautiful person. when i was told, i couldn’t even process when the name was mentioned. how is her being gone even possible?

the point, as cliche as it is, is that it really is important to enjoy life no matter what it throws at you. because it is beautiful and a gift and we never know how long we’ll have. this doesn’t mean that sometimes it doesn’t completely totally suck and we can’t recognize this and even complain. it just means we should keep in mind that it will pass. even if it takes a while. and there will always be something that isn’t horrible going on at the same time.

keep your head up. and when you don’t feel like it, allow those feelings. but recognize even the tiniest things of happiness and love.

rip, beth.